9th Aug 07 (Thurs)


"The Disaster"

Its was around 2-3am+ on Tues 7th of Aug, after abit of gaming, i stopped and chatted on Msn with Jh. After she went to bed i was as usual staring at my monitor blankly cuz i was quite sick of Dota already, till i came to realise one of my icon on the desktop was not right, its was the "Steam" program. (Its a program to login to play half-life, CS, etc games). Therefore after tried running it, i realised the main steam.exe file was missing and i had no clue why. So what i did was, i went to run the installer again and i didnt realised i selected the wrong folder to install in, i missed out the "Steam" directory and i installed it in the main folder. (My main folder is where i arranges everything into neat folders) Its when i saw lots of non-folders icon on my main folder, i realised i installed in the wrong folder. Programs like this cant be shifted between different folders by jus cut-and-paste, so i decided to reinstall it. I went to click on (Start-all programs-valve-steam-uninstall steam), and i was looking at the bar stucked halfway and it is still uninstalling despite seconds to minutes. So i clicked on the "Stop" button and i saw 95% of my main folder is gone. (What a stupid uninstalling script by Steam!!!)
This Pc have been with me since Poly days, its been roughly 4years. Everyone knows that I am someone who faces my Pc more than any other things else. Its like my brain, my diary, my photo album, my 24/7 mp3 player when playing game or while in my sleep(without music i cant sleep well), my listening ears and buddy when i feels down everytime, so much more to be named out.
It knows when to play the right songs when i am gaming, when i am sleeping, to wake me up from my sleep in the morning, when i am feeling sad or feeling high.
It gives me a pat on my back when i feels heartache with my head and tears on my desk.
It brings laughter, sadness, anger, sweetness into my life.
It lets me keep in touch with the world.
Most importantly it reminds me of my old times, jus like the title of my Blog.
"All about me, my life and people around me"
Every Songs, photos, information files i stored means something to me, they are all part of my past. And i am someone who often refers back all the old stuffs to remember of myself in the past. I will smile, laugh, miss, cry, fear, angry at them, they are all my memories. Without them, i will probably slowly starts to forget everything 1 by 1.
Anyway back to the topic, the losses are thousands of songs, photos, important files, but i am actually more depressed due to the losses of my photos. I really likes taking photos of me, my friends and things around me, its like every now and then i will jus take out my hp and snap.
The moment i saw my folder being wiped out, my brain was being reformatted as well. The next thing i did was, i shutdowned my Pc and headed to my bed and lied there staring blankly at the walls n ceilings for hours with my emptied brain.


"The New Me?"

New me? I have made a decision to be a different me from 7th Aug onwards. Not much differences, just trying to change my thinkings and goals of my life, as well as my priority ranking, hope i can succeed. Whether can i or can i not retrieve back the files i lost, i leave it to fate, and i am not gonna get bothered by it that much anymore. Its time to move on and stop living in my past.
Lets go back to what i did on Monday. I went for a run with fei in the afternoon, then went library to self-study for abit in the evening and met Jh for dinner n stuffs at nite.
Tuesday, after i woke up from the disaster, chatted with some ppl via sms and msn but some of the chat wasnt really pleasant. I cant really remember wat i did but only remembers i spent my whole evening-nite at library and Jp's Mcdonalds, self-studying alone and fei joined me later on.
I dunno why but while cracking my brains on Mathematics, i am actually unknowingly throwing aside every problems i am facing. I felt so much better after the self-studying and reached home around 11pm+. Forced myself to bed quite early after i reached home cuz i am having early class the next morning. I dont usually sleep that early so it took me quite awhile for me to reach my dreamland.
Wednesday, Woke up early without any problems, not as rush as usual, so i took and switched among buses all the way to SIM. As usual, the lonely me sitting alone listen to the Indian lecturer speaking in that fast and "Chim" accent. Luckily she is the Maths lecturer, at least thats my best subject or else i probably wont be able to understand or catch what she is saying. Anyway her way of teaching is really CMI (cannot make it). Its hypnotising lor! Making me dozing off in the lesson of my favourite subject. Wth! Comparing her with the Statistic Lecturer Mr. Bernard Ong, i will give him 7 and give her 3. She can even make a joke so dull, when the joke can actually be quite funny if its told by someone else. Well anyway ended my lesson before noon, was undecisive on what to do or where to go, and just then, Marv asked if i wanna go Ntu with him so the shui-bian-me of cuz agreed la. Ended up i didnt manage to catch the bus Marv is on, so i went Library to self-study again. It was around 2pm+ when i stepped into the library, expecting to be able to find a good seat with table cuz its still early. But, its National Day Eve! Its totally opposite of what i am expecting. I walked few rounds on the 3rd floor till i saw someone left so i took over it. Marv joined me at 5pm, and i carry on cracking my brains yet happily trying to solve Marv's Maths tutorial questions till Jane arrived at 6+pm then we went for dinner and chit-chatting session. Went to the bball court near Jp at 8+pm to join Jm and rest. Went home at 10+pm. Took a shower and set off back to Jp at 11-12am for midnite movie "Bourne Ultimatum". It is a great and must-watch movie. First time i felt pain in the eyes and body being tired when i am watching movie. Maybe its due to my flu and sore throat this few days and as well as long hours of studying. Its 4am+ now and its National Day, wonders hows my day like today. Hope its occupying as well...

3:24 AM

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