阿沁 - 其实还爱你 / Tuesday, July 3, 2007
我讨厌 阴天的风 冷得那么刺痛
只有你 能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落 被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你 找到离开的理由
每一夜 闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦
你微笑 但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝 直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你 不想失去你
难道我没有权利 说我不愿意
你给了他的吻 虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住 你的心
我知道他很爱你 你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心 害怕你离去
可不可以任性 求求你不要去
藏在我心里 最后一句
其实还爱你
每一夜 闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦
你微笑 但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝 直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你 不想失去你
难道我没有权利 说我不愿意
你给了他的吻 虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住 你的心
我知道他很爱你 你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心 害怕你离去
可不可以任性 求求你不要去
藏在我心里 最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性 求求你不要去
藏在我心里 最后一句
其实还爱你
and i mean it............. sighz.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wat a.... nothing much for me to cheer about... day.
Morning woke up to go for medical appt, then rest abit till 1pm for my driving lesson.
Came back at 3pm and slept till 10+pm.
Already so bored and emotional over recent problems and trying to settle my mind down abit but suddenly everything became worse after some incidents.
Haiz... actually what i want for my life is quite simple, but it seems impossible.
- A stable career to 养家. My parents, relatives, kids, wife, siblings, etc... (still pending since i haven reach that stage)- 2 or more kids (not too much la -.-) i dont wan my kids to be the only child cuz i dont wan them to be like my childhood- parents as well as my uncles n grandma to be able to live long enuff till they see me becoming successful and all grown-up. And at least enjoy what i am able to give them and pls live longer >.< (why am i talking abt this -.- Choi!) - Most importantly my wife. she must be totally able to "merge" with me. whatever we do, we do it together if not at least support one another. honesty is the main key too. nth should be kept between one another. And of cuz faithful to one another is very important, which i suppose Everyone also think so. We must hav chemistry and must be understanding to one another as well. Aint those i mentioned are what everyone wants too? What i wants is a very simple relationship rite? Well in summary, what i hope for my future wife is someone who will always be by my side supporting me, who will nian me and not neglecting me. Of cuz i will never let her down la, she will always hav the full of my heart, shes givs me alot, i givs her even more. And with my dearest being sweet with me all the time, whatever i do, career and everything would be much more better, cuz how my relationship goes affects my mood and mood affects what i do, my motivation comes from her more than my friends do. 也就是说我要的，只是我爱的人，能爱我多一些， 粘我多一点， 我就心满意足了。 可是真的很难吗？ All i want is just a simple n sweet relationship =/ seems impossible.- Friends! They are important roles in my life too. Cuz friendship last longer than relationship, or maybe cuz my relationships are always so hmmm not lasting. I can say they are much important than my family after i reached teenage days. Really great thx to my poly friends and Jw42 as well as camp mates. Actually my friends are really quite limited lei, always searching around my contact list in my phone to find friends out but like not much lei.... -.- Anyway i can only hope that these remaining friendships i still holding on to will last forever. And hopefully i can get to make more new friends around ba, cuz i really need more steady friends around to accompany this irritating me who always so wu eng... everyday must go out, must game, must do something, dont sleep, dont like to rest, like superman like that engine keeps on going 24/7.Alright thats all for tonite. The first 2 days of this new month didnt came out well, hopefully tml can be a different day ba. Everyday being so emo really making me insane soon. Losing interest in everything, losing appetite till i can 2days no need eat proper meal. Think i am going back to my games le ba. Nitez....
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